they have dented me
the male to female ratio is out of porportion.
i was drowning.
thankyou jessica. clare. eden.
your friendships mean the stars to me.
but because of these fellas in my life
i am left thinking i am awkward, dumb, "easy", etc.
because of the cutting knife escaping from your lips.
i would like an outdoor tea party.
with apple juice filling the tea cups.
and deep loving conversations galore.
the smell of old books makes me smile.