Wednesday, October 28, 2009

spinning teacups in a dark abyss

i'm spinning in a teacup this week.
only i'm not turning the wheel.
all is blurry
where is the clarity?
everything is puzzling
what can i be sure of?
who can i allow behind
the doors
of my abode?
he is knocking
dare i answer?
right and wrong are so hazy.
are there such things as this?
do i dare enter any deeper into this abyss?
they are warning me not to.
they say they dont want me to get
swallowed up by the blackness

i feel like i already did

a long time ago.

did anyone notice?

Friday, October 23, 2009

i love human connection
especially the kind without words.
a mood or a look or a sound is all it takes.
this clarity is proving itself tonight especially.
and also i like knowing people.
and friends are good.
and jessicas pretty.
that is all.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

when i was a little girl, i wanted to create a fossil.

i gathered a smooth stone,

carefully picked a green leaf off of the aspen tree

in our front yard,

and placed it atop the stone.

i kept it in a shoe box in my closet.

i checked on it every day to see if it was a fossil yet.

i asked my teacher when it would becme one.

and after that my hopes of creating this

were non-exhistant.

as strange as this sounds,

this was more of a shock to me than santa not being real.